Weight Loss Panic

Posted by admin on February 12, 2011 under Self Image | Read the First Comment

After I cleared the associations to emptiness made in that ancestral time of lack, I started to look at the patterns and how they can sabotage our weight loss goals.  I traveled to Denver for 10 days.  I posited that this would be an ideal time to break the patterns that had me snacking in the kitchen in the afternoon.  When I returned from Denver and stepped on the scales I found that I had dropped five pounds.  I then felt this frenzy creep into my psyche.  I could not stay out of the kitchen.  I was eating the chips, the avocado, the crackers, the nuts, etc.  I had felt that feeling before.  I would drop the weight and then I would go into a feeding frenzy.  The feeling was compulsive to the point of panic.

The confirmation that I had released (to date 9 pounds since starting this journey) additional weight had triggered a feeling that weight loss was dangerous so I had to gain it back…quick.   I wasn’t hungry.  I wasn’t empty.  I just had to eat to get back the weight.

Feeling into the need to gain the weight back.  It was dangerous to be thin.   I did the clearing with Reference Point Therapy and there was another aspect.  Being thin meant I would bring in people I could not trust and when I that happened I would go cold and empty.  It felt like a wall of protection.  The cold and empty kept me safe from people that would betray me.

Stay tuned…

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